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WHOLENESS

 

Wholeness Wholeness is the level of Soul’s consciousness at which Spirit, or vital energy, flows abundantly through the Soul, bringing incessant pleasure, joy and fulfillment. It represents the resulting state of being after the process of healing is complete.

The wound to be healed is one underlying all other pains: unworthiness. The Soul feels it as a need to prove its worth, while Spirit feels it as not being good enough. Both feelings derive from the same place, namely the Soul’s lack of appreciation for Spirit as a source of power, and instead its treatment of Spirit as only a means to pleasure. This attitude of the mind causes the Soul’s inherent impotence as Spirit is the only source of power in existence, while it simultaneously devalues Spirit to the status of matter, to be used and consumed as a mere pastime stimulant. The resulting situation provokes the same lack and desire in both: to receive whatever it is that will make them worthy. Yet Spirit and Soul are two forces bound in the same circuit of energy, and if both desire to receive, no one gives and both go empty. The solution lies in the way each defines worthiness.

The Soul defines worthiness as the feeling of being powerful. It believes that this feeling is attained by performing a heroic deed according to the Soul’s perception of heroism. Thus Souls amass wealth, beauty, connections, accolades or knowledge to reach that feeling, only to find that it subsides shortly after peaking, and completely vanishes in the face of failure; some never quite feel it, despite everything they achieve. The reason why this feeling is so capricious is that feelings are a function of Spirit, not a function of the Soul. Within human, Soul stands for the masculine energy of mind, will and body, while Spirit stands for the feminine energy of feelings, wisdom and potential. In other words, Spirit ‘owns’ feelings, and in order for the Soul to feel worthy and powerful, Spirit needs to feel worthy and powerful, not the mind, nor the body.

Yet the Soul engages in heroic solutions to power without even considering what makes Spirit feel worthy. Its accumulation of stuff, money, education, sophistication, status and pleasure feeds mind and body, yet often leaves Spirit empty. For Spirit defines power as the Soul’s appreciation for Spirit, not its ego aspirations. Spirit desires to be valued for its wisdom, its ability to lead the Soul to its purpose and potential, and not just as a means to pleasure. Although pleasure is the sweet fruit on the tree of life, it is wisdom that makes the tree grow and regenerate, and is thus the real power of Spirit. Spirit offers wisdom by imprinting its desires upon the Soul, and feels worthy and powerful when the Soul heeds, rather than ignores this guidance in an act of arrogance or fear. Souls who reject their true desires thus render Spirit powerless, its wisdom worthless and its existence purposeless, imprinting on both Soul and Spirit deep feelings of unworthiness.

The fulfillment of Spirit desire is the only way for the Soul to be worthy and feel powerful. The mind’s job is to discern its feelings, seek the wisdom they deliver and choose its action carefully. For instance, behind feelings of irritation with the noisy neighbour lies the Truth of impotence over one’s life circumstances. This impotence is likely not limited to housing but pervades other life expressions, such as work or personal relationships. The wisdom that the feelings of irritation are delivering to the mind is that a deeper problem is at hand – namely a dormant, unexploited potential – that needs to be attended to. In other words, Spirit desires the Soul to stop hiding behind excuses and empower across the board. In order to do so it will first need to dive within and locate the root of the problem.

A strong and honest mind takes responsibility for its weakness by receiving Spirit’s desire for power, and by seeking Truth about its lies and shadows so that it can purge them. In contrast, a weak mind seeks to soothe its feelings instead, by either moving house, quarreling with the neighbor or taking sleeping pills. By refusing to derive wisdom from its experience the Soul effectively kills Spirit, or the Truth of its impotence and the path of its empowerment, an act that results in a temporary relief from suffering but at the cost of life.

The killing of Spirit is a ubiquitous reaction of humanity in situations of impotence, for the path of Truth so offered by Spirit is not the safest path for the Soul. In fact, the dive into root causes of impotence is a hard pill to swallow, aimed at destroying and rebuilding the Soul’s weak self-worth from scratch. The mind’s clutching onto force is thus understandable if counterproductive, akin to a dying patient’s refusal to undergo a painful but life-saving operation.

However, without the operation the Soul will die. The mind’s stubborn preference for death over healing is due to its fear of suffering and simultaneously an expression of its ignorance: for unlike the death of body, souldeath is not the immediate extinguishing of pain but a full immersion in it, an experience of complete destruction far worse than the tribulations of healing. Thus Spirit’s push for healing, as painful and scary as it might seem to the mind, represents the Soul’s only path of salvation.